It hurts. I hate it. I'm torn.

My shoulder feels like I'm being stabbed OVER and OVER and OVER. It hurts so bad I'm nauseous. I got a shot two weeks ago. It's no longer working. I keep powering through it. Harder and harder. I've even given into it, gotten massages, chiropractic help, rested and iced it.

And it still hurts. I still hate it. It's still torn (what, you mean it didn't fix itself?)

Here's my dilemma. I COULD (although I hesitate) take off and have the flipping surgery to fix it. BUT...

• There could be complications, and it could end up WORSE


• I'd miss work, and on top of that, "Rest" isn't really something that happens at home


• I'd have to rehab it - that means PT appointments several times a week


• I'd have to stop teaching classes


• I'd lose muscle, strength and probably gain weight during my recovery - which is tough to do when you're a fitness COACH


• It costs a lot of money


• I'm not a fan of pain medications - they ALL make me ill. I recovered from a full radical hysterectomy on Tylenol. I'm not kidding. IT SUCKED.

So..is it better to just power through it, take tylenol/advil and ice it when I can? Or risk all of the above to fix it.

I hate being a grown up.