Blog-Worthy

I haven't been feeling very blog-worthy lately. Things happen - some funny, some cute, some sad - but I don't know what to write because I'm kind of at a point these days because I'm not sure what is and isn't relevant on any kind of scale. For example:

• People all around us are having job scares - pink slips, lay offs, shut downs, etc. We felt blessed to have jobs that we were secure in. But then it became too real. My husband has a "threat-level meeting" at work today.
• I have been trying to recover from my surgery...still. It's taken much more patience and effort than I realized to feel "normal" again. And I have been whining. Then one of our dear friends with brain cancer who is a 34-year old mother of 4 began having seizures following a chemo treatment. Her husband, who played match maker to my husband and I, is falling to pieces in front of our eyes.
• I have been dealing with the emotional side of not having more children - then a friend of a friend lost her baby shortly after his birth due to an unexpected complication. Even though I didn't really know the family personally, I mourned the death of that baby, and felt the pangs of hurt by his mother.
• I have been struggling to maintain my own weight-watchers lifestyle while also mentoring several other people. I have maintained my weight - my students have lost from 5-20 pounds each. Huh?
• Every weekend from now through May is full. I could tell you each and every detail - but I'm not sure you care!
• I love my job. I could write dozens of blogs on how it feels to have a job where the people like you (genuinely), you get along, you enjoy going to work, you get a decent salary, you have a flexible schedule and you feel job security. But I'm not sure other people want to hear it!
• I'm playing BUNCO at my house Friday night - and I'm scared of what the girls will say about my horrid wallpaper, falling apart house exterior and I pray they don't break an ankle in the ruts of my driveway.

See - it's hard knowing what to say. For me as a writer to seperate need to know and want to know is hard these days. And I never really get any feedback or comments, so I'm not sure anyone even reads this to begin with! But that's ok, because life is crazy, I get that. But until I can sort out my brain, this post is as good as it gets...for now.